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You mumble something cryptic
And then giggle in your sleep
A smile so wide I know you can’t be dreaming about me
The lack of circulation to my arm under your head
Makes pins and needles dance as I lie helpless in your bed
Want to hear the awful truth?
I really do believe
That we dance on pins and needles
We dance on pins and needles
And try to keep our balance though we stumble every day
We never stop to wonder what got lost along the way
You grip my hand too tightly as you feel me letting go
My fingers unresponsive like a mitten full of snow
Want to hear the awful truth?
I really do believe
That love means one thing to you
Another thing to me
Just the tingle of severed nerves
Where feeling used to be
We dance on pins and needles
We dance on pins and needles
You sit down on my lap without a warning or a word
And kiss me like a teenage girlfriend waiting at the curb
I taste the desperation in you and it makes me blush
To find my thighs desensitized to any youthful rush.
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I scan the nighttime sky
Paralyzed by vertigo
As my life spins out of control
I spot the archer with his bow
Whose constellation guards
The celestial zodiac
Human and horse
Cause and effect
Like an arrow to my back
Sagittarius
How did I get into this hopeless mess?
Sagittarius
Was it fate, or my own choice?
It’s all there in the stars
Venus and Mars
Bruises and scars
Do I reach for the stars
Or do they reach out for me
Drawing me in
Luring me on
With the pull of gravity
I realize the stakes
And it cuts me like a knife
Without a will
Without a voice
What’s the meaning of my life?
I confess to the crime
Empty bottles of wine
Purple eyeliner streaks
Lipstick stains on the sheets
And the smell of perfume
Lingers still in the room
On my tongue still the taste of regret
You’ll be betrayed again
By the destiny of man
To be played out
Again and again
In a cruel eternal plan.
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Why do we have to fight like this?
A brotherhood of eager fists
You’ve always had a taste for blood
If you’re not man enough to shrug it off
Well I guess that’s your loss
You know me like nobody else
It’s like a marriage made in hell
We’re always at each other’s throats
But when the dust clears and the choking ends
We’ll still be best friends
Cause we’re indestructible
Our friendship is bulletproof
Invulnerable to the recklessness of youth
Yes we’re incorruptible
Our friendship is guaranteed
We’re full-time companions
And part-time enemies
I don’t know who will get killed first
We’ll be together at the worst
A pointless war in foreign lands
Or murder at the other’s hands no doubt
I can’t rule that out.
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Soon she’ll fade away
An empty promise
Cast in shades of grey
An image from a dream
Or 50’s TV screen
Going colorblind
I tell myself to
Quit while I’m behind
It’s more than I can bear
To see her standing there
And vanish in thin air
In monochrome
In black and white
She disappears right in front of me
Like color dies in the dark
In camouflage
Against the night
My eyestrain pales in comparison
To the straining of my heart
If only I could shine
A flashlight on her
Pulling her inside
To catch her like a ghost
Entrapped forever close
Right here in my hand
A genie in a bottle to command
Within her radiant shrine
Defying space and time
Her light forever mine.
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I spent a lifetime chasing shadows
Haunting the space where two lives crossed
Just when the sun was in alignment
The clouds came in and all was lost
I thought I would leave you too
And say, “This is it – we’re through”
But then I saw the dark
The alchemy of you and me
Our shadow
A witches’ brew of me and you
Our shadow
Can’t tell one of us from the other
Our forms and features overlap
No light can pass between our union
Our bodies blend without a gap
Admiring the shade we cast
I let go of futures past
And watched our worlds combine
A safety net in silhouette
Our shadow
This earthly bond will last beyond
A shadow of a doubt
We’ll never fade.
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I say I should take you home but you want to stay here
On the beach all alone with our blankets and beer
In the dark how we ache to fulfill this hunger
Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger
Ashes in fire pits and fires in our hearts as we move
Crashing waves in an urgent and quickening groove
Consummating the end of a perfect summer
Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger
If I never felt this way again
That would be okay
I could die right now a happy man
Because we had today
I peel the tag off a bottle hands dripping with sweat
Write a note on the back that says “never forget”
The best moments race by in a head-twisting blur
Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger
Just before sunrise we’re caught in a warm summer shower
So we climb to the top of a dry lifeguard tower
And we’re rocked to the core by the gentle thunder
Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger
We’re truly alive today
I’d trade all my tomorrows
For one more taste of this naiveté
For this naiveté
I’d trade all my tomorrows
Truly alive today
In love with the whole world today.
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Bought myself a one-way ticket
To a place you’ll never visit
Setting off for freedom and adventure today
Letting go of all my burdens
Don’t go calling missing persons
Cause you’ve got no right to claim me
Pretty sure they wouldn’t blame me
If I thought that it was worthwhile
To erase my online profiles
Wiping out all traces of my identity
No address to forward mail to
What good would a paper trail do?
Even changed my cell phone number
Why would I do that you wonder?
Try to catch me, I don’t care
It’s over, I swear
Racing to nowhere
In leaps and bounds
So release the hounds
I was lost when I was with you
Wondering what I’d gotten into
In a pointless fight you told me to go away
Now a distant sun is rising
As I face a bright horizon
So I showed you quite directly
I can do some things correctly
Try to catch me, I don’t care
It’s over, I swear
Racing to nowhere
Minutes turn into seconds
Liberty beckons
Eyes to the heavens
Nose to the ground
So release the hounds.
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You emerge
Your face drawn in black and white
Your corset laced up just right
A vampire in fishnets
“So,” I laugh
“What are you supposed to be?”
You smile but won’t answer me
Is this a trick or treat?
Master of the cheap disguise
Sometimes I can’t believe my eyes, I tell you
(You/I/We) sure know how to make a scene
It must be Halloween
Half asleep
We race home to beat the dawn
I cut through a corner lawn
And slice my head on a branch
“Hang on – I just need to catch my breath”
You say that I look like death
And toss back your head to laugh in revenge.
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In a little while
The lines will deepen on our faces
As the longest mile
Begins to circle home
Can’t help thinking that
We regulate our deepest feelings
Like a thermostat
To match our comfort zone
As we stand here toe to toe
If you kiss me now I’ll know
That our happiness is just a matter of permission
If not now when
It's now or never
We've just one life to live together
So little time to stop and mourn
What might have been
If not now when
It's now or never
All things must end
There's no forever
So little time to stop and mourn
What might have been
If not now when
In a little while
Our world will crack in hairline traces
Like a crooked smile
A Mona Lisa grin
At the very end
I’ll liberate these inhibitions
But I can’t pretend
It’s easy to begin
Cause the devil that disturbs
Daring acts and candid words
Is the part of me that worries it’s too late to love you
Maybe on another day
Always something in the way
Now I realize that life is one long string of somethings.
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Soon she’ll fade away
An empty promise
Cast in shades of grey
An image from a dream
Or 50’s TV screen
Going colorblind
I tell myself to
Quit while I’m behind
It’s more than I can bear
To see her standing there
And vanish in thin air
In monochrome
In black and white
She disappears right in front of me
Like color dies in the dark
In camouflage
Against the night
My eyestrain pales in comparison
To the straining of my heart
If only I could shine
A flashlight on her
Pulling her inside
To catch her like a ghost
Entrapped forever close
Right here in my hand
A genie in a bottle to command
Within her radiant shrine
Defying space and time
Her light forever mine.
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I say I should take you home but you want to stay here
On the beach all alone with our blankets and beer
In the dark how we ache to fulfill this hunger
Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger
Ashes in fire pits and fires in our hearts as we move
Crashing waves in an urgent and quickening groove
Consummating the end of a perfect summer
Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger
If I never felt this way again
That would be okay
I could die right now a happy man
Because we had today
I peel the tag off a bottle hands dripping with sweat
Write a note on the back that says “never forget”
The best moments race by in a head-twisting blur
Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger
Just before sunrise we’re caught in a warm summer shower
So we climb to the top of a dry lifeguard tower
And we’re rocked to the core by the gentle thunder
Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger
We’re truly alive today
I’d trade all my tomorrows
For one more taste of this naiveté
For this naiveté
I’d trade all my tomorrows
Truly alive today
In love with the whole world today.
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Penny for my thoughts
Make a wish and toss it down
Into the well
But the well’s run dry
Every thought evaporates on my tongue
Promised I’d try
To show you what I feel inside
I keep to myself
Because there’s nothing left
Nothing really there to hide
Or confide
This is something I have to do
Maybe not thought-provoking
But it’s just what I promised you
And you thought I was joking
This is my life
Like someone else’s diary
Edited out
Factual and dry
Sterilized for public view
Nothing new
Still I hold hope inside
That someday my words will run free
To play out my part
In something bigger than me.
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Imagination is powerful stuff
It can get ugly
It can get rough
Sometimes I dream horrible things
Just to try on how they might feel
To see what reactions I can reveal
I want to know
What if I lost you
I want to know
What would it mean to me
If your life were threatened
Hypothetically
Maybe a car crash
Maybe a plane
Maybe your heart stops
Maybe your brain
Would CPR in the ER trigger an SOS in my head
Bring my emotions back from the dead
It goes without saying
I mean you no harm
Don’t let these musings
Cause you alarm
Still if I find my idle mind
Conjuring visions of distress
It’s an experiment
Only a test
Yes it’s morbid but
I want to know
Do I still love you
I want to know
What would my future be
In a world without you
Hypothetically
I want to know.
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I spent a lifetime chasing shadows
Haunting the space where two lives crossed
Just when the sun was in alignment
The clouds came in and all was lost
I thought I would leave you too
And say, “This is it – we’re through”
But then I saw the dark
The alchemy of you and me
Our shadow
A witches’ brew of me and you
Our shadow
Can’t tell one of us from the other
Our forms and features overlap
No light can pass between our union
Our bodies blend without a gap
Admiring the shade we cast
I let go of futures past
And watched our worlds combine
A safety net in silhouette
Our shadow
This earthly bond will last beyond
A shadow of a doubt
We’ll never fade.
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Your jaw is clenched
Preparing for the worst
A pessimist is always on alert
Your life has had its share of tragedy
But standing guard takes too much energy
Forget about abandonment
Forget your childhood
Count on me cause I am here for good
Your parents split in 1992
But you’re the only one who’s blaming you
And though you haven’t
Seen your father since
When I reach out to touch you
Still you wince
When will you let yourself love me more?
When will you let yourself love me
All the way?
I love the way you radiate
An inner strength and pride
And holding back is sometimes justified
We need to shield ourselves from violence
But love demands a lack of self-defense
Forget about abandonment
You know I never would
Trust in me cause I am here for good.
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You live your life anonymously
Stuck in this world of beauty queens and nobodys
You’re not a star or a millionaire
Tinseltown snubs its nose but you don’t really care
Your unassuming figure hides
Something beautiful
Behind the t-shirt and Levi’s
Something beautiful
And I want you to know
That I’m honored to be a part of
Learn the art of
Journey to the heart of you
When did we all start judging so fast?
Stuck in this world where first impressions always last
Book jacket praise just doesn’t suffice
Why should a classic novel have to be concise?
And I know that you’re somebody special
And I know that you’re more than you seem
Cause I see so many things in you
That are missing in me
I open up, confess all my sins
Stuck in this world where people hear but don’t listen
You disapprove but you understand
You never act as if you're better than I am.
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A collection of new and hard-to-find remixes of original material from 1999-2008.
released September 18, 2012
Color Theory is Brian Hazard
All songs by Brian Hazard (ASCAP) © 1999-2008 except:
In an Hour from Now
Written by DJ RAM and Brian Hazard © 2006
Design by Dave Pasciuto
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Mastered by Resonance Mastering
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