The Lost Remixes, Vol. 1

by Color Theory

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1.
You mumble something cryptic And then giggle in your sleep A smile so wide I know you can’t be dreaming about me The lack of circulation to my arm under your head Makes pins and needles dance as I lie helpless in your bed Want to hear the awful truth? I really do believe That we dance on pins and needles We dance on pins and needles And try to keep our balance though we stumble every day We never stop to wonder what got lost along the way You grip my hand too tightly as you feel me letting go My fingers unresponsive like a mitten full of snow Want to hear the awful truth? I really do believe That love means one thing to you Another thing to me Just the tingle of severed nerves Where feeling used to be We dance on pins and needles We dance on pins and needles You sit down on my lap without a warning or a word And kiss me like a teenage girlfriend waiting at the curb I taste the desperation in you and it makes me blush To find my thighs desensitized to any youthful rush.
2.
I scan the nighttime sky Paralyzed by vertigo As my life spins out of control I spot the archer with his bow Whose constellation guards The celestial zodiac Human and horse Cause and effect Like an arrow to my back Sagittarius How did I get into this hopeless mess? Sagittarius Was it fate, or my own choice? It’s all there in the stars Venus and Mars Bruises and scars Do I reach for the stars Or do they reach out for me Drawing me in Luring me on With the pull of gravity I realize the stakes And it cuts me like a knife Without a will Without a voice What’s the meaning of my life? I confess to the crime Empty bottles of wine Purple eyeliner streaks Lipstick stains on the sheets And the smell of perfume Lingers still in the room On my tongue still the taste of regret You’ll be betrayed again By the destiny of man To be played out Again and again In a cruel eternal plan.
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Why do we have to fight like this? A brotherhood of eager fists You’ve always had a taste for blood If you’re not man enough to shrug it off Well I guess that’s your loss You know me like nobody else It’s like a marriage made in hell We’re always at each other’s throats But when the dust clears and the choking ends We’ll still be best friends Cause we’re indestructible Our friendship is bulletproof Invulnerable to the recklessness of youth Yes we’re incorruptible Our friendship is guaranteed We’re full-time companions And part-time enemies I don’t know who will get killed first We’ll be together at the worst A pointless war in foreign lands Or murder at the other’s hands no doubt I can’t rule that out.
4.
Soon she’ll fade away An empty promise Cast in shades of grey An image from a dream Or 50’s TV screen Going colorblind I tell myself to Quit while I’m behind It’s more than I can bear To see her standing there And vanish in thin air In monochrome In black and white She disappears right in front of me Like color dies in the dark In camouflage Against the night My eyestrain pales in comparison To the straining of my heart If only I could shine A flashlight on her Pulling her inside To catch her like a ghost Entrapped forever close Right here in my hand A genie in a bottle to command Within her radiant shrine Defying space and time Her light forever mine.
5.
I spent a lifetime chasing shadows Haunting the space where two lives crossed Just when the sun was in alignment The clouds came in and all was lost I thought I would leave you too And say, “This is it – we’re through” But then I saw the dark The alchemy of you and me Our shadow A witches’ brew of me and you Our shadow Can’t tell one of us from the other Our forms and features overlap No light can pass between our union Our bodies blend without a gap Admiring the shade we cast I let go of futures past And watched our worlds combine A safety net in silhouette Our shadow This earthly bond will last beyond A shadow of a doubt We’ll never fade.
6.
I say I should take you home but you want to stay here On the beach all alone with our blankets and beer In the dark how we ache to fulfill this hunger Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger Ashes in fire pits and fires in our hearts as we move Crashing waves in an urgent and quickening groove Consummating the end of a perfect summer Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger If I never felt this way again That would be okay I could die right now a happy man Because we had today I peel the tag off a bottle hands dripping with sweat Write a note on the back that says “never forget” The best moments race by in a head-twisting blur Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger Just before sunrise we’re caught in a warm summer shower So we climb to the top of a dry lifeguard tower And we’re rocked to the core by the gentle thunder Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger We’re truly alive today I’d trade all my tomorrows For one more taste of this naiveté For this naiveté I’d trade all my tomorrows Truly alive today In love with the whole world today.
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Bought myself a one-way ticket To a place you’ll never visit Setting off for freedom and adventure today Letting go of all my burdens Don’t go calling missing persons Cause you’ve got no right to claim me Pretty sure they wouldn’t blame me If I thought that it was worthwhile To erase my online profiles Wiping out all traces of my identity No address to forward mail to What good would a paper trail do? Even changed my cell phone number Why would I do that you wonder? Try to catch me, I don’t care It’s over, I swear Racing to nowhere In leaps and bounds So release the hounds I was lost when I was with you Wondering what I’d gotten into In a pointless fight you told me to go away Now a distant sun is rising As I face a bright horizon So I showed you quite directly I can do some things correctly Try to catch me, I don’t care It’s over, I swear Racing to nowhere Minutes turn into seconds Liberty beckons Eyes to the heavens Nose to the ground So release the hounds.
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You emerge Your face drawn in black and white Your corset laced up just right A vampire in fishnets “So,” I laugh “What are you supposed to be?” You smile but won’t answer me Is this a trick or treat? Master of the cheap disguise Sometimes I can’t believe my eyes, I tell you (You/I/We) sure know how to make a scene It must be Halloween Half asleep We race home to beat the dawn I cut through a corner lawn And slice my head on a branch “Hang on – I just need to catch my breath” You say that I look like death And toss back your head to laugh in revenge.
10.
In a little while The lines will deepen on our faces As the longest mile Begins to circle home Can’t help thinking that We regulate our deepest feelings Like a thermostat To match our comfort zone As we stand here toe to toe If you kiss me now I’ll know That our happiness is just a matter of permission If not now when It's now or never We've just one life to live together So little time to stop and mourn What might have been If not now when It's now or never All things must end There's no forever So little time to stop and mourn What might have been If not now when In a little while Our world will crack in hairline traces Like a crooked smile A Mona Lisa grin At the very end I’ll liberate these inhibitions But I can’t pretend It’s easy to begin Cause the devil that disturbs Daring acts and candid words Is the part of me that worries it’s too late to love you Maybe on another day Always something in the way Now I realize that life is one long string of somethings.
11.
Soon she’ll fade away An empty promise Cast in shades of grey An image from a dream Or 50’s TV screen Going colorblind I tell myself to Quit while I’m behind It’s more than I can bear To see her standing there And vanish in thin air In monochrome In black and white She disappears right in front of me Like color dies in the dark In camouflage Against the night My eyestrain pales in comparison To the straining of my heart If only I could shine A flashlight on her Pulling her inside To catch her like a ghost Entrapped forever close Right here in my hand A genie in a bottle to command Within her radiant shrine Defying space and time Her light forever mine.
12.
I say I should take you home but you want to stay here On the beach all alone with our blankets and beer In the dark how we ache to fulfill this hunger Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger Ashes in fire pits and fires in our hearts as we move Crashing waves in an urgent and quickening groove Consummating the end of a perfect summer Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger If I never felt this way again That would be okay I could die right now a happy man Because we had today I peel the tag off a bottle hands dripping with sweat Write a note on the back that says “never forget” The best moments race by in a head-twisting blur Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger Just before sunrise we’re caught in a warm summer shower So we climb to the top of a dry lifeguard tower And we’re rocked to the core by the gentle thunder Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger We’re truly alive today I’d trade all my tomorrows For one more taste of this naiveté For this naiveté I’d trade all my tomorrows Truly alive today In love with the whole world today.
13.
Penny for my thoughts Make a wish and toss it down Into the well But the well’s run dry Every thought evaporates on my tongue Promised I’d try To show you what I feel inside I keep to myself Because there’s nothing left Nothing really there to hide Or confide This is something I have to do Maybe not thought-provoking But it’s just what I promised you And you thought I was joking This is my life Like someone else’s diary Edited out Factual and dry Sterilized for public view Nothing new Still I hold hope inside That someday my words will run free To play out my part In something bigger than me.
14.
Imagination is powerful stuff It can get ugly It can get rough Sometimes I dream horrible things Just to try on how they might feel To see what reactions I can reveal I want to know What if I lost you I want to know What would it mean to me If your life were threatened Hypothetically Maybe a car crash Maybe a plane Maybe your heart stops Maybe your brain Would CPR in the ER trigger an SOS in my head Bring my emotions back from the dead It goes without saying I mean you no harm Don’t let these musings Cause you alarm Still if I find my idle mind Conjuring visions of distress It’s an experiment Only a test Yes it’s morbid but I want to know Do I still love you I want to know What would my future be In a world without you Hypothetically I want to know.
15.
I spent a lifetime chasing shadows Haunting the space where two lives crossed Just when the sun was in alignment The clouds came in and all was lost I thought I would leave you too And say, “This is it – we’re through” But then I saw the dark The alchemy of you and me Our shadow A witches’ brew of me and you Our shadow Can’t tell one of us from the other Our forms and features overlap No light can pass between our union Our bodies blend without a gap Admiring the shade we cast I let go of futures past And watched our worlds combine A safety net in silhouette Our shadow This earthly bond will last beyond A shadow of a doubt We’ll never fade.
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Your jaw is clenched Preparing for the worst A pessimist is always on alert Your life has had its share of tragedy But standing guard takes too much energy Forget about abandonment Forget your childhood Count on me cause I am here for good Your parents split in 1992 But you’re the only one who’s blaming you And though you haven’t Seen your father since When I reach out to touch you Still you wince When will you let yourself love me more? When will you let yourself love me All the way? I love the way you radiate An inner strength and pride And holding back is sometimes justified We need to shield ourselves from violence But love demands a lack of self-defense Forget about abandonment You know I never would Trust in me cause I am here for good.
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You live your life anonymously Stuck in this world of beauty queens and nobodys You’re not a star or a millionaire Tinseltown snubs its nose but you don’t really care Your unassuming figure hides Something beautiful Behind the t-shirt and Levi’s Something beautiful And I want you to know That I’m honored to be a part of Learn the art of Journey to the heart of you When did we all start judging so fast? Stuck in this world where first impressions always last Book jacket praise just doesn’t suffice Why should a classic novel have to be concise? And I know that you’re somebody special And I know that you’re more than you seem Cause I see so many things in you That are missing in me I open up, confess all my sins Stuck in this world where people hear but don’t listen You disapprove but you understand You never act as if you're better than I am.

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A collection of new and hard-to-find remixes of original material from 1999-2008.

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released September 18, 2012

Color Theory is Brian Hazard

All songs by Brian Hazard (ASCAP) © 1999-2008 except:

In an Hour from Now
Written by DJ RAM and Brian Hazard © 2006

Design by Dave Pasciuto www.davpunk.com
Mastered by Resonance Mastering www.resonancemastering.com

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