The Silence + Second Thoughts

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released 05 April 2011
Color Theory is Brian Hazard

All songs by Brian Hazard (ASCAP) © 2008-2010

Sagittarius
Backing vocals by Michelle Hazard

Touch
Backing vocals by Helen Austin www.helenaustin.com

If It's My Time to Go (Original Mix)
Produced by Caesar Filori of Wideband Network www.thewideband.net

Waiting in the Wings
Produced by David Gonzalez of Odd Year www.oddyear.net

Design by Disc Makers www.discmakers.com
Mastered by Resonance Mastering www.resonancemastering.com
Special thanks to Todd Durrant at A Different Drum www.adifferentdrum.com

Original versions of remixed songs featured on:
The Thought Chapter (2008)
The Sound (2010)

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I‘ve always been a computer geek, but I started music lessons at the relatively late age of 13. I grew up on a steady diet of Depeche Mode and classical piano. My music combines those two great loves.

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Track Name: Monochrome
Soon she’ll fade away
An empty promise
Cast in shades of grey
An image from a dream
Or 50’s TV screen
Going colorblind
I tell myself to
Quit while I’m behind
It’s more than I can bear
To see her standing there
And vanish in thin air

In monochrome
In black and white
She disappears right in front of me
Like color dies in the dark
In camouflage
Against the night
My eyestrain pales in comparison
To the straining of my heart

If only I could shine
A flashlight on her
Pulling her inside
To catch her like a ghost
Entrapped forever close
Right here in my hand
A genie in a bottle to command
Within her radiant shrine
Defying space and time
Her light forever mine.
Track Name: Release the Hounds
Bought myself a one-way ticket
To a place you’ll never visit
Setting off for freedom and adventure today
Letting go of all my burdens
Don’t go calling missing persons
Cause you’ve got no right to claim me
Pretty sure they wouldn’t blame me

If I thought that it was worthwhile
To erase my online profiles
Wiping out all traces of my identity
No address to forward mail to
What good would a paper trail do?
Even changed my cell phone number
Why would I do that you wonder?

Try to catch me, I don’t care
It’s over, I swear
Racing to nowhere
In leaps and bounds
So release the hounds

I was lost when I was with you
Wondering what I’d gotten into
In a pointless fight you told me to go away
Now a distant sun is rising
As I face a bright horizon
So I showed you quite directly
I can do some things correctly

Try to catch me, I don’t care
It’s over, I swear
Racing to nowhere
Minutes turn into seconds
Liberty beckons
Eyes to the heavens
Nose to the ground
So release the hounds.
Track Name: Sagittarius
I scan the nighttime sky
Paralyzed by vertigo
As my life spins out of control
I spot the archer with his bow
Whose constellation guards
The celestial zodiac
Human and horse
Cause and effect
Like an arrow to my back

Sagittarius
How did I get into this hopeless mess?
Sagittarius
Was it fate, or my own choice?
It’s all there in the stars
Venus and Mars
Bruises and scars

Do I reach for the stars
Or do they reach out for me
Drawing me in
Luring me on
With the pull of gravity
I realize the stakes
And it cuts me like a knife
Without a will
Without a voice
What’s the meaning of my life?

I confess to the crime
Empty bottles of wine
Purple eyeliner streaks
Lipstick stains on the sheets
And the smell of perfume
Lingers still in the room
On my tongue still the taste of regret

You’ll be betrayed again
By the destiny of man
To be played out
Again and again
In a cruel eternal plan.
Track Name: Touch
It’s only natural to demand
That I should free your captured hand
When we’re not seeing eye to eye
And when that thinly veiled contempt
Descends to open discontent
It’s positively justified

Casual facts, inaccurate claims
Apologies that won’t take the blame
When compromise is conquered by pride
All it takes is one touch and I’m back on your side

When sleeping with the enemy
There’s no “excuse me,” “thanks,” or “please”
It doesn’t pay to be polite
And in a twist of irony
Love is a liability
We must control our appetites

Back to back we’ve drawn our line in the sand
A house divided taking a stand
Emotionless like part of us died
All it takes is one touch and I’m back on your side

Forgiveness is a powerful word
To speak is not always to be heard
When talking leaves us unsatisfied
All it takes is one touch and I’m back on your side.
Track Name: Indestructible
Why do we have to fight like this?
A brotherhood of eager fists
You’ve always had a taste for blood
If you’re not man enough to shrug it off
Well I guess that’s your loss

You know me like nobody else
It’s like a marriage made in hell
We’re always at each other’s throats
But when the dust clears and the choking ends
We’ll still be best friends

Cause we’re indestructible
Our friendship is bulletproof
Invulnerable to the recklessness of youth
Yes we’re incorruptible
Our friendship is guaranteed
We’re full-time companions
And part-time enemies

I don’t know who will get killed first
We’ll be together at the worst
A pointless war in foreign lands
Or murder at the other’s hands no doubt
I can’t rule that out.
Track Name: Waiting in the Wings
Maybe this is precisely as it should be
Maybe this is the fabled man of your dreams
Maybe you never noticed my overtures
Maybe given the chance you’ll see I’ve matured

Another plotline
Another script
The me in another life
Would win you over
To snatch you up
And claim you as my wife
Until you stamp out
My stubborn schemes
Of churches and matching rings
I’ll be content to bide my time
Waiting in the wings

Maybe you wanted more but thought it too late
Maybe you’re not the type to challenge your fate
Maybe I’m nothing more than comic relief
Maybe offered the proof you’ll shed that belief.
Track Name: Last Song
I just thought that you should know
This will be my last song
I've got nothing more to say
I tore my heart out just for you
Wrote down every detail
Put the whole thing on display

You don't know me at all
You don't know me at all
You don't know me after all

I just thought you'd want to know
This might be my last song
I just want to hear you say
That it means something to you
Not a lot just something
That it’s not just throwaway

You don't know me at all
You don't know me at all
You don't know me after tears and laughter

Nobody wants to be analyzed
But we all need to be understood
And so I sing and still I would
Even if no one was listening
Every song is a journal in rhyme
A tribute to the audience
That sings along in my mind

I just wanted you to know
This won't be my last song
I've got so much more to say
Though the words escape me now
I won’t give up trying
To connect with you someday.
Track Name: Extroverts at Play (Rename 7" Introversion)
They don’t know what they believe
So we stare and nod as they think out loud
Trying our best to fit in
As we fight for breath in this stifling crowd
And the time races by when you’re having some fun
But it’s plodding along now at quarter to one
As the night tries our patience we’re hitting a wall
I slip off to the side like I’m taking a call to observe

Extroverts at play
Egos run amuck
I’d like them well enough
If they would just shut up
But we will persevere
By sheer force of will
We’ll stoically endure
This social overkill

Tomorrow we’ll take the whole day
To recuperate in a private place
Sleeping or reading a book
Our resilience now is our saving grace
So just try to imagine, it’s not such a stretch
I’m the life of the party and it is the death of me
Here in my eyes you’re the belle of the ball
With the hint of a smile you enchant more than all of the…

Maybe someday this will
Come to us more naturally but
Until then we’ll have to pretend

We’ll hone our acting skills
Fake it ’til we make it baby
Until then we’ll have to pretend.
Track Name: A Safe Distance (Robots With Rayguns Mix)
I recall the first time you caught me dining alone
At a restaurant on the third floor
You sat down across from me with a bottle of wine
Shook my hand and started to pour
Then opened the window to the music below
A theater under the stars
We shared our life stories and a view of the stage
Falling in love from afar

Though it feels like they’ve played out
The same act a million times
A routine struggling just to keep
From falling asleep reciting their lines
You say this is the way we’re meant
To enjoy the opera
At a safe distance

We’ve met at this table now ten years in a row
To see the same opera performed
Recreating the scene down to the slightest detail
The night our tradition was born
Attendance is low but still the show must go on
The participants gossip offstage
The waiter assures us that the wine is the same
I guess it gets bitter with age

Though it feels like we’ve played out
The same act a million times
A routine struggling just to keep
From falling asleep reciting our lines
Still it makes me happy
I love you at a safe distance
I’ll always love you at a safe distance.
Track Name: Hypothetically (Rupesh Cartel Club Remix)
Imagination is powerful stuff
It can get ugly
It can get rough
Sometimes I dream horrible things
Just to try on how they might feel
To see what reactions I can reveal

I want to know
What if I lost you
I want to know
What would it mean to me
If your life were threatened
Hypothetically

Maybe a car crash
Maybe a plane
Maybe your heart stops
Maybe your brain
Would CPR in the ER trigger an SOS in my head
Bring my emotions back from the dead

It goes without saying
I mean you no harm
Don’t let these musings
Cause you alarm
Still if I find my idle mind
Conjuring visions of distress
It’s an experiment
Only a test

Yes it’s morbid but
I want to know
Do I still love you
I want to know
What would my future be
In a world without you
Hypothetically

I want to know.
Track Name: Backseat (Odd Year Remix)
I hear you think about me now and then
To fantasize about what might have been
I’ve always been the one who got away
The careless bullet tends to ricochet

There’s virtue in the straight and narrow path
And though you can’t afford the aftermath
The rear-view mirror tends to draw the eye
So sneak a peek now baby, don’t be shy

But you say you’re happy
So maybe it’s for the better
But you say you’re happy
To chauffeur these doubts forever
Keep me in the backseat of your mind

You’re driving under my influence
Drunk on the thrill and deaf to consequence
You know that I could make your life a mess
And yet you chose to wear your tightest dress.
Track Name: I Should've Kissed You (O.Davie Remix)
You said, “I’m sorry if I misinterpreted you.”
“I guess I overanalyzed.”
But I’m an idiot and you were right all along
It’s me who should apologize
We kept the stars awake confessing everything
Until there was nothing left to say
And then you turned to me with eyes halfway to a dream
What kind of man would turn away?
Nobody but me

I should've kissed you
I should've kissed you
Totally blew it
I didn't do it
But God I wanted to
I should've kissed you
I told myself when
You leaned in closer
Here comes my big chance
But then it was over
And now I miss you
I should've kissed you

I play that moment out a hundred different ways
Each time I kick myself again
You had to settle for a hug and squeeze of the hand
The consolation of a friend
My eyes abandoned you to chase a light in the sky
An airplane flying high above
I wanted so badly to tell you this isn’t me
I need your love – I believe in love
Despite how it seems

You know this wasn’t
What I was intending
A tale for the ages
A storybook ending.
Track Name: If It's My Time to Go (Original Mix)
Never quite sure when it will come to pass
Living each day like it could be my last
Cause the planet seems to spin a little bit faster
When you wake up every day awaiting disaster

Took a long time for me to admit defeat
Too many dreams just lying there at my feet
But I’m older now it seems
A little bit smarter
So I won’t go to extremes by playing the martyr

If it’s my time to go
You should know how much I love you
If it’s my time to go
I am ready
If it’s my time to go
Then go on ahead without me
Close my eyes
Kiss my cheek
Let me go

Coming to terms changes your attitude
Tempers the fear with genuine gratitude
I’ve enjoyed some happy years
Collected some trophies
But the end is drawing near
So listen up closely

All bets are off
There are no guarantees
What happens next
We’ll have to just wait and see
Let this song be my goodbye
Don’t try to reject it
No loose ends for us to tie
We’re interconnected.
Track Name: Two (United Forces In-Trance Mix)
What have we here?
It’s not what you think
I’ve had time to consider my words
And nothing to drink
Caught in the act
With sweat on my brow
I knew sooner or later you’d find out
So how about now?

Don’t cry for your mother
Don’t curse your discovery
I don’t think any less of you
There’s room in my heart for two
Don’t call me your lover
Don’t grudge me another one
You shouldn’t let it bother you
There’s room in my heart for two

Don’t look surprised
You had to suspect
I’ve got way too much time on my hands
What did you expect?
To let me go
Would be such a waste
There are plenty of other girls happy
To be in your place

We’re all adults
There’s no need to shout
We can talk later on if you want
I’m busy right now
So run along
Now be a dear
Could you turn off the lights on your way out?
I’m not finished here.
Track Name: If Not Now When (Cosmicity Remix)
In a little while
The lines will deepen on our faces
As the longest mile
Begins to circle home
Can’t help thinking that
We regulate our deepest feelings
Like a thermostat
To match our comfort zone
As we stand here toe to toe
If you kiss me now I’ll know
That our happiness is just a matter of permission

If not now when
It's now or never
We've just one life to live together
So little time to stop and mourn
What might have been
If not now when
It's now or never
All things must end
There's no forever
So little time to stop and mourn
What might have been
If not now when

In a little while
Our world will crack in hairline traces
Like a crooked smile
A Mona Lisa grin
At the very end
I’ll liberate these inhibitions
But I can’t pretend
It’s easy to begin
Cause the devil that disturbs
Daring acts and candid words
Is the part of me that worries it’s too late to love you

Maybe on another day
Always something in the way
Now I realize that life is one long string of somethings.
Track Name: Game Over (Painting the Prototype Mix)
You’re so kind, you’re so sweet
I’m inclined to sweep you right off your feet
You may blush, but it’s true
You deserve the best and I deserve to give it to you
To that end I’ve the means
Born of years perfecting intricate schemes
If it works out this once
We’ll be sipping margaritas in a matter of months

Is it risky, maybe
Is it legal, maybe not
When your middle name is danger
There’s no room for second thoughts
If they catch me it’s game over
If they don’t then we’re home free

Is it theft? Well not quite
Just financial sleight of hand when done right
Take a look in the garage
It’s equipped for simple hacking up to espionage
I’m discreet, I’m covert
And I promise that no one will get hurt
I’ve said all that I dare
To protect us both from jeopardy I’d better stop there

It’s too late to turn back now
And high time to disappear
Our troubles will soon be past
So think of me fondly dear

If by some unlikely chance
I don’t live to see this through
Remember me with a smile
I did all of it for you.
Track Name: Zero Crossing (Quantum Remix)
In this rhythm me and you
In this rhythm me and you
Watching ones and zeros flow
Through this sonic scene we drew
Shape is sound and sound is mood
All emotion crystal clear
Layered sine waves speak to me
Like a voice inside my ear

Why do we always fight
For the right of way, right away?
Ever the hero caught at a zero crossing

In this rhythm me and you
In this rhythm me and you
Plus and minus dissipate
To a common point of view
When you're down I bring you up
When you're up I bring you down
Out of phase I cancel you
At the speed of silent sound

A flattened line became our sign
I sacrificed a dimension for you

In this rhythm me and you
In this rhythm me and you
Words unsaid are deafening
Like a charge we hold on to
When we touch a static shock
Echoes through our fragile past
Clashing with a frequency
That could almost shatter glass

And when we signed the dotted line
I sacrificed a dimension for you.